We like the show The Office. Over summer break Daniel and I rewatched the whole series on Netflix. In one of the episodes Oscar (an accountant know it all) tells Michael (an incompetent manager starting his own company) that most new businesses don't make a profit for the first five years. When we watched it the first time I thought that was silly. I mean this is what being an American is all about. You make your own way, right? And it takes hard work but it still happens, right?
Well, we're smack dab in the middle of our first year of running this business and I don't see that five year statement as silly any more. It is incredibly difficult to drum up business. I'm not saying it will be impossible but you guys, it is definitely a very challenging uphill battle.
We're trying to figure out a balance for me and Daniel to do our respective jobs. I've taken on the marketing for the business. I'm a fish out of water. I always thought I could do well at sales. It's feels entirely different to sell a product versus a service. With a product people can see, feel, touch, taste or smell and know the quality immediately. With service, the product is a service with a whole lot of blue sky. That's not to say the blue sky is not legitimate, it's just hard to quantify.
Daniel has worked all sorts of odd jobs to make a little money to pay bills. We sold our truck and mini van and bought an older model suburban. We cut out car payments and shaved down our auto insurance. We've almost completely cut out eating out and we're doing everything we can to keep our grocery bill lower.
In all of this we have two choices. We can 1. Choose to let worry and anxiety take over. We can allow the fears to become obsessions. We can continually attempt to succeed under our own strength. Or 2. We can trust The Lord.
We're choosing number two. Let me be clear, we have to choose this minute by minute some days. And by simply choosing to trust Him we are not automatically guarunteed success. We don't subscribe to the health and wealth gospel but we do believe we are here doing this for a reason. It is entirely possible that reason is for us to fail miserably and be incredibly humbled but I don't believe that to be true. We must choose to trust but still get up everyday and push through the struggle, even if it is exhausting and uncertain.
I don't believe in the "American Dream". If it were simply our right as Americans to just work hard and we'll get ahead and be total successes, everyone would be wildly rich and there would never be struggling people. What I do believe in is seeking wisdom and direction from our savior. I do believe in submitting to his will. I do believe that as believers we are never guarunteed comfort or abundance but we are guarunteed to not walk the path alone. And, frankly, knowing there is someone walking alongside is a huge comfort.
*If you feel so inclined, would you pray for us? For boldness to seek out customers? For The Lord to make a path before us? For protection from the Enemy? For the
Lord's continued provision?