28 April 2015


I'm at the end of my 30 Day Fitness Challenge. My goals at the beginning were not completely insane. I had four. They were:
1. Work out 5-6 times a week. I was able to stick to this goal completely! I was shocked, but I definitely felt better and I found myself wanting to get a work out in, even if it was 9PM. 
2.  Drink 84-124 ounces of water a day. I was on the lower end of this everyday. There were days when I didn't even get to 84 ounces but they were few. 
3.  Cut out sugar. You guys! Sugar is insidious. I don't know what it's going to take to rid myself of the irresistible urge for sugar. I would like to say I scaled back over the last month. The truth is I did great for 1 week. After that, the cravings were too much and my will was weak.
4.  Eat as healthily as possible. This was also better than I imagined it would be with the exception of #3.  I tracked calories accurately and faithfully (even if I knew I was going over for the day) 95% of the month. I made major attempts to keep my nutrition balanced with as many whole unprocessed foods as possible. I was able to do this most successfully  with breakfast and lunch. I found if I could stay on track with those two meals I was able to eat whatever I made for the family for dinner and not go crazy. I did not by any means adhere to some outrageous diet that cut out whole food groups. I tried to stay within this percentage balance, 50% carbs, 30% protein, 20% fat. I used the app My Fitness Pal to track calories and water consumption. I'm also getting better at keeping track as I eat. I'm still going to record what I eat.  I don't know if there will be a time when I can move away from that or if I'll always need that accountability.  We'll see.  For now, this works.


I lost 7 pounds (in spite of what I thought about 3 weeks in).  I am finding I put too much stock in what the scale says. Sure, I do want to be lighter in the pounds but I got discouraged at week three when I actually gained weight.  I think for me (or maybe women in general) I need to weigh only about 2 times a month.

I lost 2 inches off my waist, 2.5 inches off my hips, 2.5 inches off my each thigh, .5 inches off my bust, and .75 inches off each bicep.  These measurements were far more telling for me.  If I only weigh myself twice a month, I will definitely continue to measure once a week.  I think these might be more motivating than the numbers on the scale.

I'm doing a 30 day Ab challenge with my friend who ran this last challenge.  I'm excited and ready to stay on this journey of getting healthier.  

27 April 2015

Friday Gifts 3.0 (a little later than normal)

161.  A Potty Trained Girl!!!! I cannot even begin to express how much joy this brings me!
162.  A good annual check up with all normal blood work. 
163.  Having a doctor I trust. 
164.  Making changes that are lasting. 
165.  Not getting discouraged by slips in judgment regarding food. 
166.  Forward movement on our front doors. 
167.  That Dad is retired and has the desire to fix our doors. 
168.  Making family friends. 
169.  A potential new customer. 
170.  An articulate little girl who asked me to "pop that banana in my mouth". :/

21 April 2015


Life is nuts right now.  I have all sorts of thoughts in my head but they spend all their time whirling around in there making me crazy.  So, here's a mind dump.

-School is out in one month! I just found out they changed the end date from the 22nd to the 21st and it's only a half day!  What am I going to do with these children?  I guess we'll be figuring out and working on 4-H projects (except I have no idea what we're doing because I guess our group just assumes we have the knowledge).
-The business is on an upward trend, as far as clients go, but we need the trend to be going higher faster.
-I have to fulfill one more prerequisite this summer before I can start in August.
-I have to figure out how to pay for my degree.
-We have two school programs two nights in a row.  I like that we don't have to sit through 7 grades worth of music programs but we have a kid in the 3rd/4th group and a kid in the K-2 group so we're enjoying kids singing two nights in a row.  Next year they'll be together but the year after that we'll have THREE! separate ones to go to.
-I potty trained Bea last week.  Daniel worked with her and mom was here one day to help.  I dreaded it like I have never dreaded potty training.  It turns out she is champ.  No more babies in our house.  (As an aside, I've been thinking about this a lot lately.  I read a blog of a woman who has five kids, college aged down to three.  She has lamented for the last several years I've read her blog how so very sad she is she won't have any more babies in her house and how great having babies in the house is.  Don't get me wrong, I loved my babies when they were babies.  I struggled and lamented and laughed and enjoyed.  I am blessed to have been able to be with them through all the major milestones that come in those first couple of years.  But, I have not once felt the need to worship at the altar of the baby.  I am loving every stage and phase of our children's life and I don't for a moment feel like we're missing out on something because we are out of the baby stage.  At this point, there is little about the baby stage that I miss.  And there is so much I'm enjoying about the age of the elementary and preschool kid stages we're in.  These kids have creativity and ideas and imaginations and the ability to communicate and my older two are starting to understand reason and bigger issues.  I wasn't dragging my feet on potty training because I wanted to keep Bea little.  She's big and getting bigger by the day.  And, on this front, I am so excited to see how life unfolds for us in the next couple of years.)
-I'm in the process of getting both Clementine and Bea into preschool.  One of my good friends runs the preschool at the elementary school and she is awesome.  If they both get in, I feel completely confident they are in great hands.
-Our goal for thriving and not just surviving this year is limping along.  I think we're still working towards that goal.
-Jesus and I are working on my heart regarding trust and hope.  I don't know if any of you have ever been in a place where hope with a little H is nearly nonexistent but Hope with a big H still remains? For a while now, I have been sure I have Hope in being with Jesus when I die but the little hopes I have in this life we life we have right now have been absent.  This is a hard place to be because hope is what helps keep us moving forward.  But hope is also so very dangerous.  It sets us up for major disappointment at our cores.  So, I'm trying to be open about this with you and my Lord.  My hopes for this life are mine and it's possible I've been placing too much importance on them and having them met.  It's possible I assigned the Lord's blessing to my hopes without actually seeking or hearing whether or not it was true.  It's possible I've elevated them to a place of such grandeur I can no longer see what remaining open and flexible to what God has in store for us really looks like.  It's possible I needed to grieve what I thought life would look like but I haven't given myself permission to do so.  Because when we planned this move and new business several years ago, this is nothing like what we thought it would be.  When hopes die and dreams turn into nightmares and the hardness of life keeps getting harder with no relief there is no shelter in the storm but Jesus.  But when it feels like Jesus has abandoned you, where are you left?  It is a dark place, people.  The kind of darkness that threatens to consume you.  (Please don't read this and think I'm in dire straights.  Things in my heart, head and faith department are much better than they have been in six months.  Just keeping it real with where I've been and the rabbit holes I sometimes still find myself jumping into.)
-My goal of being sugar free for a month has been obliterated.  Seriously sugar, why are you so yummy? *Sigh*
-I'm still working out 5-6 times a week and so far I've lost 1.5" off my waist, 2.5" off my hips, 2.5" off my thighs and my bust and biceps have remained the same.  So, that's something.
-I tried running the other night.  I just don't know if I'll ever be a runner.  I might keep trying to make a true assessment but maybe I'm just a work out in the privacy of my own bedroom sort of lady.
-Yearly physical tomorrow, home improvement projects over the weekend, a MOPS dinner at our house the next week, a graduation to attend, summer to plan, friends to see, life to live, heads to keep above water.
-Mind dump finished.  

17 April 2015

Friday Gifts 3.0

146. Getting to be mom to a loving, creative, goofy, and sometimes infuriating boy. 
147.  Celebrating Phinn with family. 
148.  More than the normal bumber of third graders in my house. 
149.  Fellowship with our church family. 
150.  Feeling stronger. 
151.  Not giving up. 
152.  Losing inches. 
153.  Getting stuff straight for grad school. 
154.  Still clinging to hope for the future.  
155.  Potty training for the last time. 
156.  Pringles. 
157.  Chocolate motivators. 
158.  Juice.
159.  Wisdom from previous experiences that tells me not to give up and that each kid is different. 
160.  That by day 2.5 it looks like she's getting it. 

10 April 2015


I thought I would post an update on how my fitness challenge is going. If you'll remember, I set four goals for myself over the course of the challenge in hopes of changing some bad habits and starting some good ones. 
Those goals were:
1.  Drink 84-124 ounces of water a day. 
-I'm doing ok with this. I think the least amount I've consumed in a day is 64 ounces. Still good. 
2.  Cut out sugar. 
-Not totally successful with this yet. I'm not giving up, though. 
3.  Work out 5-6 times a week. 
-Yes! There has actually only been one day that I didn't get a work out in until 8 PM. I really didn't want to work out that night but I did it anyway and it was good. 
4.  Eat as healthy as possible. 
-This is going ok. I'm tracking my calories and trying to make good decisions. I'm finding that I have a hard time getting 1550 calories in for the day if I'm eating all good, whole foods. If I throw junk food in, my calories are gone fast. 

I'm somewhere between 6-8 pounds down and when I measured on Sunday I had lost three inches overall.  We'll see what Sunday's stats look like. 

Friday Gifts 3.0

136.  Our vehicle, returned from the shop with a new transmission. 
137.  Incredible generosity from friends. 
138.  Family day! 
139.  He is risen!
140.  Rain. 
141.  The most consistent work out routine I've ever had. 
142.  Seeing results. 
143.  Fellowship with our bible study. 
144.  Having plenty of space for 30 people. 
145.  A sweet reminder from a friend. 

06 April 2015

Pictures Galore!

I have had a ton of pictures on my big camera for a while.  Get ready for a photo dump.

We had only one snow this winter worth sledding.  This hill is a block away from our building.  Awesome!  So grateful their daddy is willing to sled with them.  

Gigi is such a good little helper.  She's going to do great and compassionate things one day.  

Bea wasn't really a fan of the snow.  She went down the hill twice and was done.  She and Clementine and I went home after about five minutes.  I feel the same way girl.

Spider Girl!  She loves this costume.  If she finds it and puts in on, she's in it for several days.  

This girl.  Posing.  Where does she get this? 


My beauty.

From the ground.  :)

Our one good family picture from Easter.  :S